Black Pearl Creation’s Blog

Ok, I’ve complained about the lack of support I have. I just read an article last week that said breast cancer survivors rates of survival went up by an additional 50% if they were part of a support group. I have several reasons for not joining a group:

1. I’m too tired!
2. I don’t want to hear other people’s sad stories. Sad, but true.
3. I want the focus to be on me. I’m not in a very compassionate mood right now.

Tell me, if you have gone through a challenge: did you utilize a support group? Was it useful?

My 5th chemo was last Wednesday but I haven’t felt up to blogging for a long time. I’m on new drugs and it seems like my energy comes back a little bit stronger than before. The fatique is still cumulative but I feel better when I do come back, if that makes any sense.

Thankfully, my auntie was with me during the last session. I fell asleep for about 4 hours (Benadryl, baby) and I wouldn’t have eaten if it wasn’t for her. It was an 8 hour session. Yeah, try sitting in a chair hooked up to tubes for 8 hours. Can we say my butt still hurts?

But lo and behold, when I wake up from my stupor, I see a professional woman next to me. There is something about her and another lady asks her, “Are you Donna Sytek?” She replies that she is. For those familiar with New Hampshire politics, you know who she is. For everyone else, she is New Hampshire’s first female Speaker of the House. Cancer truly knows no boundaries. The other lady asked a lot of questions which I thought were very intrusive. The Lady Speaker was very gracious. The lady tried asking me questions and my auntie gave her a look that would melt cheese. True, I write a blog but it’s still up to me in what I want you (my readers) to know. The irony is the Lady Speaker has written a book on etiquette! LOL

I also started wearing wigs again. Looking like the Coneheads’ sister is ok for a while but it does get old. And I’d much rather turn heads with some hair than without! I just couldn’t take the looks of pity anymore.