Black Pearl Creation’s Blog

At the gym today, I thought of me and the kids taking pictures after chemo but before my surgery. The nice thing was: I saw it. I could visualize it. I saw them in my lap (well, the baby anyway. The boy is TOO big), goofing around, smiling. I even saw the baby tell another little child “My mommy is sick, that’s why she has no hair”. I saw my face, my makeup, earrings. I saw everything. I can actually see a bit further down the road. I’ve been a bit of a doom and gloomer lately. I guess because I was ok with dying, I expected it to happen quickly. So for me to see a future was astonishing and pleasantly surprising.

And let’s face it, I don’t hate anyone else enough to have them take care of the kids! LOL